Stone Free

Hello there.  I know it's been a while.  The truth is I've been avoiding you.  Well, not YOU necessarily,  more what I would TELL you.

To say last week was tough would be an understatement.  I don't know what started it exactly, but a dark heavy cloud definitely chose me as it's new best friend.  I spent the whole week feeling gloomy, grey and downright sorry for myself.  Did I mention that I have no idea what triggered it?

It was so frustrating!  I had this huge pile of what I like to call "blec" weighing on my shoulders.  Along with the "blec" came a giant load of "I can't stand myself" and "I don't think anybody else can either" and "I don't blame them" and "No one else will feel sorry for me, so I'd better".  I'm sure none of you have ever suffered this.  I'm pretty sure I'm the only one.

Thank goodness for Mondays.  That's right...MONDAYS!  While many dread Mondays (and yes I do too, occasionally), I relish them.  Monday is the mark of a new week, a chance to start clean and fresh.  I love Mondays and today was no exception.  Today was a chance to start anew, a chance to escape that nasty cloud's shadow.

At church yesterday my amazing and hot husband preached about not living a "stoned life".  In other words, it's the week after easter.  A stone no longer exists on Jesus' grave and we should live like it.  It was a great word that we all need to hear.  As I sat there I kept thinking about how I had spent the whole week wallowing feeling sorry for myself and listening to every single lie the devil (and myself for that matter) threw my way.  I was living as if I HAD to listen to that nasty sucker and simmer under that heavy cloud instead of living according to the truth-THE SAME POWER THAT ROSE JESUS LIVES IN ME! (which happens to be my favorite verse in the whole wide world)

So today I seized the truth and with all I could I decided to live a stone free life.  Today wasn't perfect.  I can still feel that heavy cloud hot on my heels.  But it was a new fresh day filled with new hope and new life.  And with that I begin (finally) to be thankful...

holy experience

1. The prettiest baby in the whole wide world
2. 4 blue eyes to stare into anytime I want
3. Family coffee date with friends
4. The END of the PGA Masters
5. A cell phone that keeps on ticking no matter how much baby drool it endures
6. My homegrocer.com mug
7. Giggling with my super silly little sister
8. Finding a great pair of skinny jeans for my adorable neice
9. My sister picking up some cute clothes and toys for Elli
10. Two lovely college girls bringing highlights into a very tough week
11. A fun trip to the NIKE employee store
12. Toby Mac's TONIGHT album
13. Elli's tiny hands lifted in worship
14. Elli crying out "mama" in the night for the first time
15. My cozy, cuddly bed
16. My very own blog-stalker Ms. D ;)


Damaris Estrada said...

I love YOU!!

Brian Becker said...

I love you babe...even if you can't appreciate great golf!

KT Stewart said...

Silly little sister??? I am very serious ALL THE TIME!!! I love you and I am glad you are blogging:)

JenessaMichele said...

These are all great things to be thankful for:):)

Chrissy said...

I love you and am so proud to have you in my life!!! Your're the best... pastor/ mom-ish-figure- sort -of-person...and person I look up to greatly.. ever! I love you Jenn

krystaldye said...

ahh you found me out lol :)