Time for some SOAP

It's 3:37pm and I haven't showered yet.  I don't feel like it.  I'm having a weepy day and everything around me seems to fit the mood.  The skies are grey, Elli's not feeling 100%, my hair looks terrible (thanks to not showering), the kitchen has taken on a life of it's own, I have 4 "blemishes" and my Fels-Naptha bar (the ultimate stain remover EVER) is missing.  I'm not exactly sure what my deal is...I guess it's just one of those days.  Do you have them?

Earlier in the week I talked about living with your Holy Spirit spectacles.  I think, along with not showering yet,  I forgot to put them on today because all I see is blah, blah, BLAH.   

I guess this is yet another reminder that this walk with God is DAILY.  It doesn't flow simply according to feelings or preferences.  If you want to see what He sees, you've got to look to Him daily.  So, I'm going to grab my life journal and wash my icky mood away with the purity of God's word...and then hopefully get a physical shower too!

S: Scripture-what scripture stands out to you?
O: Observations-what is this scripture about, what is it teaching?
A: Application- how does this scripture apply to my life?  How do I need to respond?
P: Prayer- pray the through the scripture and application

Holy Spirit Spectacles

Over the past year I have become more and more agitated with situations in which people (myself included) just don't see what God has done for them, wants to do for them, who He is or His love.  It's frustrating to watch people (and, again, myself) struggle under a lack of understanding God's grace, favor, and freedom.  It's even more frustrating when this blindness leads them (or myself) into a snowballing slew of poor choices or mentalities.

While I was reading my daily life journal  this morning a verse that has spoken to me in the past about this jumped out at me.  1 Corinthians 2:12 "Now we have not received the spirit that belongs to the world, but the Holy Spirit Who is from God, given to us that we might realize and comprehend and appreciate the gifts of divine favor and blessing so freely and lavishly bestowed on us by God."

If you read all of 1 Corinthians 2 you will realize there is NO WAY we can understand even a hint of God without the help of the Holy Spirit (read 1 Cor. 2:16).  We cannot even see the good things (let alone the deep things) of God without getting our vision corrected by the Holy Spirit.  It is the Holy Spirit that helps us "get it", He is the one that gives us spiritual spectacles to see God's hand in our lives.

There is a girl in our youth ministry that has worn glasses since she was a baby.  They have become so much a part of who she is that she even sleeps with her glasses on.  After a slumber party I asked her why she slept with them on and her reply was, "So I can see as soon as I wake up."  I then asked her if they were uncomfortable and she simply said, "No, they've always been there, it's just normal to me."

My heart's cry is that I would be connected to the Holy Spirit like this girl is to her glasses.  I want to be so  tuned in to the Spirit of God within me that I can "see" as soon as I wake up.  I don't want to waste even  second looking through my near-sighted nature.  I want to be familiar with the Holy Spirit to the point that I cannot live any other way, that hearing His voice and receiving His revelation is known as normal rather than a "extra good prayer time."

So, this morning I submit to the Holy Spirit.  I pray for His voice to be heard before my own.  I am drawn to worship Him as I put on my spiritual spectacles and see the goodness and grace of God.  I want to please and honor Him with all I am.  Oh that we all could see as He does!

Update

Welp, getting back into the swing of things was a little more difficult than I anticipated this week, but I still made some definite strides forward.  As far as my goals from last week go here's how I did:

1. God: I did get up before Elli the days we were home this week and it was awesome!  I really enjoyed knowing I started the day off right and it really kept me focused on staying connected to the Holy Spirit throughout the day.

2. Family: I did ok on keeping up with things until Wednesday (the day I had to get ready for our trip).  Things just began to pile up (literally) as we prepared for our trip due to some unexpected meetings and such. So...we came home to a cluttery mess.  HATE THAT!!!  Thankfully I have a full day at home tomorrow and all will be made well.

3. Health: ugh, don't even want to talk about it.  I utterly failed in this area.  I didn't do one thing the way I wanted.  Why is this so hard for me?  I'm thankful for a new week and another fresh start in the morning.

We did have a lovely weekend in Lincoln City with a group of our leaders.  It is amazing to me how God orchestrated the event.  It is now apparent that He had His hand in who went and that He cares about every detail, even chemistry.  It was an awesome time to hear one another's hearts and to start looking toward what God has for our ministry in this next season.

I'm looking forward to this week and to keep honing in on what God has for me and Him.  My heart is burning to be intimately connected to Christ and His Spirit throughout the entire day.  I love Him and I want to love Him more.

What do you want out of this week?

Picking up my purpose...again

For the past few weeks I have become a blur.  I have stopped living with purpose in mind.  I have let random schedules, undone to-do lists, phone calls, emails, and most of all selfish desires rule my days.  Rather than falling asleep feeling content that I walked in God's plan for my life that day, I toss and turn knowing I wasted so much time or used so many weak excuses to avoid challenges.  To sum it all up, you could say I have allowed my days to be tossed to and fro, afloat on a sea of meaningless actions. (How's that for sounding philosophical! ha ha)
For example, there are 3 areas in my life that are my BIG DEALS:

1. God
My hearts cry is to be in constant communication with God, to cling to the heart of Christ and to walk in the Holy Spirit's power.  Out of this flows everything else. 

2. Family
If I am to be good at one thing.  I want it to be at being the best wife, mama and homemaker possible. 

3. Health
I need endurance, energy and confidence to be who God created me to be.  My unhealthy weight is what's robbing me of these things. 

These 3 things are huge to me, yet each day they become minimized by my lack of organization and determination. 

So here is where I am grabbing the bull by the horns.  I am going to live the way Christ meant me to live, ON PURPOSE!   So, where do I start?  This week I'm going to focus on just one thing in each area. Here are my focuses for this week:

1. God: I am going to focus on putting God first by being with Him first.  I am going to get up BEFORE Elli (this is definitely a challenge for me) and spend some time with Jesus FIRST rather than wait until nap time (which usually ends up difficult because I realize how much else needs to be done in the house while she's sleeping).

2. Family: This week is SUPER busy for us, so I am going to focus on keeping up the laundry and cleaning so that we can live as chaos-free as possible. (For pride's sake I must say, our house is not usually that messy, but the clutter monster always tries to move in when life is going fast)

3. Health: I have already established a very challenging goal (-5 lbs by Thanksgiving), so this week I am going to focus two things.  Writing down what I eat and drink and walking outside at least four times.

What are you going to do to live in your purpose this week?

It's been awhile...

...since my floors have been mopped.
...since I have felt completely rested.
...since I've read a magazine in the month it was designed for.
...since I've returned an email, phone call or text  in a timely fashion.
...since morning talks have consisted of more than "Ba", "Gu", and "Ma".
...since making a balanced dinner has been a normal occurance.
...since my coffee table hasn't been dust-colored.
...since my hair has been done before 10am.
...since I have gone an entire day without dealing with another's poop.
...since raspberries meant fruit rather than "cute" spitting.
...since doing laundry hasn't come with a sense of pointless despair.
...since I have drank coffee sitting down.
...since I've been able to blog without feeling guilty for time spent.

...since I've been so completely and overwhelmingly grateful and happy for the life God has given me.

I'll be back into the blogging world this week!  In the meantime, if you read my blog on a regular basis I would love it if you would become a public follower and/or leave me a comment and let me know what you would like to see more (or less) of on this site.